Kick in the Head

What to do sometimes with the worst things that ever happened to you.

Some bad shit went down in my life about a decade ago and got worse for the next few years and it all culminated in a handful of rock-bottom moments over the last few years. All manner of betrayal and bad behavior and divorce was involved and I failed a lot of different times in a lot of different ways. I’m pulling out of it now but damn, shit was rough for awhile.

For the longest time I wrote and rewrote and rewrote about the bad shit that happened. Felt determined to turn it into something useful, you know? Do what artists do. But all I was doing was ruminating. For awhile that’s useful. You gotta feel it out, in a literal sense, to start really moving past it. And learning how to do that takes time. Part of that was writing about it all. Hundreds of thousands of words, their perspective as they’ve told it up against mine and with all the questions that could possibly bridge the gap and all possible explanations and considerations of traumas from each of our pasts and … it helped. I…